Week 11, I think hahaha
BOY HOT DAWGY WAS IT A WEEK
This week I said FORGET IT to my feelings of sadness and just went so hard trying to love every single person I spoke to... (tried to speak to)
But first, holy cow I just discovered the raddest thing. I was reading in D&C section 137 and it was talking a ton about the Celestial Kingdom. In verse 9 it said for I the Lord will judge all men according to their works, according to the desires of their hearts. How rad is that. Everything good stems from the Lord, Jesus Christ, and all good in ourselves stems from a desire in our hearts. All we have to do is keep the desire in our hearts day in and day out and the Lord will guide everything else into place. I know without a doubt that if the Lord sees we have a desire to do anything good, He will help us to an infinite level to accomplish whatever it is that we are trying to achieve. It’s not shameful to need to ask for the desire to do something. The less cool we think we are the more we will receive. You’re not too cool to ask God for the desire to choose the right. It’s not shameful to not have the desire, I have to pray for the desire to keep moving forward on this mission every morning. The thing that matters most is that God sees we’re trying humbly with all we have to follow Him.
Holy the dopest thing happened this week. Like 2 weeks ago Elder Castro forgot his umbrella at Lazaro’s house but we’ve had like 6 lessons with him since then and every time we forgot to grab his umbrella. On Tuesday we were way on the other side of town close to Lazaro’s house and Elder Castro magically remembered that he needed his umbrella so we boogied over to his house and he wasn’t home... but his son who actually got shot 10 times was just chillin on the couch ahhah so he let us in and we talked to him for a while but get this, he told us he read the introduction to the Book of Mormon and he liked it a lot. But just wait it gets better. Lazaro shows up like 20 minutes later and sees were just chillin with his step son and talkin about the good ole Book and out of nowhere the step son goes “yea I know this book is true because I’ve been praying for something that explains to me why Jesus never came to the Americas and blessed the people here. This book already answered my prayers.” DUDE WHAT?! Castro and I felt prompted to ask him if we could help him get prepared to be baptized and he accepted so fast. Dude holy how dope is that! This was all with Lazaro sitting on the couch next to him. I bore my testimony about everything and shed like 5 tears and it was so rad. Every single thing happens for a reason. Goodness gracious. God is always orchestrating something so much greater than we can even comprehend.
We returned a few days later and gave his son a blessing and it was rad. I’m glad I had the opportunity to give E Castro some blessings because it helped me be a little less nervous about the whole situation. Before we gave him the blessing we asked him if he truly has the faith to be healed and he looked at us and was like I really do and so we were like let’s do this thing then bruther. The Spirit was so strong and it was just such a rad and heartwarming experience. The physical power that the Spirit can bring into a room is something I will always be dumbfounded by.
One of the things I realized this week is that if you’re not having fun on the mission, the mission is just lame. Not only in the mission does this concept of having fun apply, but in our lives we need to just have fun and feel joy. Just go destroy an ant hill or something, I don’t know what you think is fun, but whatever it is just go do it. I really have learned that we need to have fun in everything we do. Make work fun, make the things that are literally just awful in your lives fun. God cannot work through you if you are not trying to be happy! You have gotta try! I promise your quality of life will improve! Y’all get my point.
It’s getting hard to write in English. I’m not even kidding. It’s really funny because my brain is thinking in Portuguese, but half the time I don’t have the vocabulary to say what I am trying to say in Portuguese, but my brain doesn’t remember how to say it in English hahah. It’s an absolutely vicious cycle hahaha. It’s almost like my brain is loosing English faster than its gaining Portuguese so I’m slowly just becoming a rock. Nah just kidding its not that bad I can still speak English.
I did a lot of studying this week. In the Bible Jesus says the first and great commandment is to love the Lord God with all your heart, and the second great commandment is to love your neighbor as yourself. I really thought it’s interesting that the main two commandments are about love. I am really gaining a massive love for these people and I can’t even communicate super well with them. I have found that when I first choose to love God and let him lead me instead of thinking I’m dope enough to lead myself, I find myself filled with the love for his children. It’s beautiful, love.
This week I really found my purpose in the mission. Truly. I am SOO happy out here. I’m happy when I’m suffering and times are crazy hard. I’m happy when times are going perfect and everything is just good. I’m just happy and it’s so rad. I love you guys, and without y’all none of this would be possible. Keep being you. Really, if you are struggling don’t be afraid to talk to someone. The thing that is helping me a ton is talking with my buddy Elder Kevin. The Lord puts the people in our lives that we need. There are always people that willing to help and love you. Don’t ever feel alone because you are all surrounded by more love than you even know.
With much love,
Elder Roskelley
email: proskelley@myldsmail.net
p.s.Every night Kevin and I make a delicious banana chocolate milkshake and last night it was Kevin’s turn to make it and he was super tired hahah but wanted one super bad so he attempted to make one but left a spoon in the blender hahaha so our blender exploded hahahah and now there’s a giant chocolate stain on our wall hahaha we were both laughing so hard. We weren’t about to let a hole in our blender stop us from having our daily milkshake, so we patched the hole with some tape (; haahhaha she still works like a champ
